1/1/11

I pray and hope that for 2011, I will gain certain things that may be lost in 2010. However if certain things are meant to be lost, then so be it I guess. In terms of character, I hope to be a better person and start thinking how I should care for others especially after a year of being cared for often. I pray that whatever I do, I think of how it can bless others. I want to be focused and put my mind into achieving what I hope to reach for yet not let goals be the center of my life such that it takes away the life from the years I have. I want a purpose-driven life but I don't want a rat race of life chasing after temporal, useless things that would never matter when I die. I want to trust and pray in God more. I want to intercede as something urgent, not as the last resort.

As a Self-control Assistant CG leader and I'm considering making 2011 my last year of service before I go on a hiatus in 2012, I hope to teach the kids the value of denying oneself for others, respect for diversity and the value that they have as individuals.

As a NUS student, I pray that I will be more focused in terms of studying and find joy in what I learn in school. I want to improve my CAP but not let CAP be the stronghold of my academic life, binding me like a prison. I want to be more fluent in Korean and before 2011 ends, I would be able to watch some stuffs without subtitles, or when someone ask me what a Korean phrase mean, I would be able to explain to great accuracy.

Touching on the more superficial part, I hope that I won't have a boyfriend in 2011. That doesn't mean I'm denying myself from any special someone but its more of I haven't met anyone I can see myself marrying & even if I meet someone like that this coming year, I don't wish to go into a relationship within a year. cos actually, I dislike making big promises and the phase that goes into questioning if I really want to commit to a person's life can give me loads of headache and I don't want to deal with any of those sort of stuffs this year. This & me possibly being more paranoid because I was so committed to someone before to a point whereby I didn't know I would be that loyal to the extent it amazes even myself, still scares me right now. I shall spare myself from all these since I'm only 20.

& so for 2011, I want a happy, restful, peaceful year. Even if the life that goes on around me is out of sync, I hope that in me, it will be still and calm.